Waiting

I went to the doctor today to get some bloodwork done. Unfortunately, I had gained a lot of weight. I am constantly tired, even to the point of exhaustion and fatigued, no matter how much I sleep. In addition to gaining weight, I've lost my appetite. I usually eat one meal a day, not because I starve myself, but because food rarely sounds appetizing. My moods swing drastically up and down, and loved ones tell me that I act and behave differently. I am becoming "spacy", not remembering assignments or even what I did the day before.
I don't want to complain, but I feel like shouting at God "Tell me what's wrong with me RIGHT NOW!!!" Instead, I don't have a choice but to wait. Wait patiently on the Lord.

A family that is close to mine recently had to make some tough life-changing decisions. Each member wanted their own way, and the dilemma grew bigger and bigger. Eventually, they decided to draw lots, which I had only heard of in the Bible. Guess what they drew?

"Wait"

Two days later, God opened the door and made their choice so clear, no family member could deny it. By waiting, they were able to follow God's will for their family.

Waiting is so hard, but God promises that all will work out for the good of those who love Him and who are called according to His purpose. He doesn't say that all will immediately work out for the good, but He does promise good.

Strength will rise as we wait upon the Lord, wait upon the Lord, we will wait upon the Lord!
Our God!
You reign forever!
Our Hope, Our strong Deliverer!

You are the Everlasting God!
The everlasting God!
You will not faint, You won't grow weary.

You're the Defender of the Weak
You comfort those in need
You raise us up
On wings like eagles.