October 27, 2011

Hope

I am so excited to get married!!!!!! Part of me wishes Jordan and I would elope so we could hurry up and be husband and wife, but another part of me wishes the wedding was far far in the future. I remember when I was little making mental lists of everything I was going to accomplish before I got married. This was also the time when I envisioned myself getting married at 40-something! I have not accomplished most of those things, but I have no regrets going into this marriage :)
I'm really struggling at work. I keep trying to maintain a positive attitude. I mean, I should be thankful that I even have a job, right? I'm facing two 45-hour weeks in November (including Thanksgiving week) along with the normal two 38-hour weeks. My coworkers are fighting, constantly gossiping about each other, and disrespecting everyone around them. I don't understand. Do they realize how ridiculous they look to a believer? Selfishness, petty grumbling, and dishonesty galore! These actions do not honor God, they do not get you ahead in life, and they do not make friends.
Craziness. Hopefully, I'll survive until my wedding!!!

Cast all your cares upon Him, for He cares for you.

October 2, 2011

Patience

Wow, God has been stretching me a lot lately. But, I've realized that He has been doing so much than I ever dreamed! Today, I was put in several situations where, 5 months ago, I would have lost my temper, cried, blew up at people, or taken out my frustration on someone I loved. But today, I handled it with grace (which came from God) and total patience with the people who hurt me.
I am so happy to see that I am growing spiritually. After I graduated high school and moved out of my parents' house, it became harder and harder to maintain and strengthen my relationship with God. I've been working hard to stay on the right track, and it is so encouraging to see some progress!

Morning by morning I wake up to find the power and comfort of God's hand in mine.
Season by season I watch Him, amazed, in awe of the mystery of His perfect ways.
All I have need of His hand will provide.
He's always been faithful to me.